Until just recently, I had no idea what I, truly, wanted to do with my life – it feels kinda weird seeing it on paper, because I kinda knew! – so, I mingled with things, gathered all sorts of experiences, met different people, watched loads of movies, listened to music etc. I kept my eyes wide open.
I’ve always had this eagerness to do things, it’s called “learning”, it’s pleasure, and I love it, so I’m, obviously, doing these things, still, with the same kinda energy that I’m doing the Netflix and chill thing. It’s precisely because I’ve been doing all of these things that I now know this is the place I want to be, so here I am, floating around because of Netflix. Nah. But, also, yeah. Thanks to Netflix. So, my hugging partner and I rewatched, last night, Martin Scorsese’s Goodfellas.
1. Ray Liota’s character became a gangster for the gangster’s lifestyle, not money. Awesome.
2. Karen Hill’s dress, in the rat out, at the police station, helped turn Lorraine Bracco into the character and made me realise why I love so much to be here. Because of moments like this.
The moment when it hit me. My mom took me to school, on my first day of school ever, in a dress just like this one from above. Prettier. I was mesmerised. Just as I was, every morning, when she got ready for work or, at nights, for the parties my parents used to throw.
Man!
Just as I was when I saw Karen Hill in this scene. And when they talked about style. My mom and Karen.
It weren’t just my eyes open. It were the ears all along, too.
We don’t, really, think about it when it’s happening, obviously, when we’re kids (I know I didn’t), but, then, we do and, then, we know. So, looking back, growing up, I guess I just knew the kind of woman I wanted to be. Or the woman I’ve been becoming without even realising. But then you do. I do. In moments like this.
The eyes and the ears lead everything (everything!) to our minds and souls and it all leads us to now and they don’t say Live in the moment! for nothing, anyway.
PS: I am dying to wear the dress! Interesting choice of words. And pictures.
Life, uh-huh!